Thinking

Well I am finally done with my first year of college. That is why I haven't been on here in a while. Tonight I went to the movies with Ben it was fun we went to go see "how men think" it was really funny. But they have this one theme on the movie called the 90-day rule. Where you earn a certain respect from a guy before you are serious and wait 90 days before you sleep with him. So at first I was joking around about what he would do if I wanted to do that. He got kinda annoyed then I seriously asked him and he got all defensive about it. It kinda bothered me. Like I know we have a great sex life but I wanted to know what would really happen. It just bothers me that he gets all defensive about stuff like that. I mean most of the time I am kidding but I wanted a serious answer. Then while we were driving home he got all worked up thinking I was mad at him and I wasn't mad I just want kinda shocked. But I didn't want to get into that with him tonight it would just piss me off. Idk it just makes me wonder.... Like I know he really cares about me but is sex that important to him.... Should i have waited longer before we had sex...

Stressed

Well it has been a couple days and mostly because I have been freaking out about my finals. I have to do well my parents are getting really annoying about my grades and everything. Like I am not the type of person who is okay with not doing really well. It frustrates me but having them on my ass all the time just pisses me off. Well I have been super stressed about finals and have been eating a lot so I am gonna have to start watching that. But I have been working our which is good. Ben has been really good about helping me out with things which is great he is really supportive. But when I get stressed like I do I tend to shut down and just freak out. Pretty much had mental breakdowns the last few nights. The pressure is becoming overwhelming and I am ready for this semester to be over. Only two more weeks...then my first year of college is over!

Alaina Marie
XOXO

End of break!

Well today was the last day if Easter break. I have been in buffalo since yesterday morning. Ben took me <3 it was our first road trip. It was fun I slept most of the way but whatever he didn't care. Anyway meagan and I were suppose to go to one of my favorite bands (Marianas Trench) concert, but the lead singer Josh Ramesy was in the hospital in the cardiac unit since Saturday :( so it is postponed. But whatever we Hung up and have just being chilling in buffalo. It wasn't bad yesterday as far as weather but today it was freezing. I didn't wanna even get out of bed it was so cold :( my hands and toes have been frozen all day. I have decided to go on some type of diet. Well not really diet more so a life style change. I have been gaining weight since the beginning of this last semester and I don't like it. Now that I have a job and the semester is almost over I am going to start going.to the gym more even if Ben isn't with me. I am also not going to eat when I am bored only when I get really hungry. I think that is my main problem now I eat all the time and mostly just because I am bored. I know I have been gaining weight from putting on muscle but I wanna just be in shape again. I have also decided that I want to be in a show this summer if possible. I really miss being in plays I used to be plays all the time and I haven't done one in a while. I really miss it. So that is another one of my goals for this summer. a

Easter Day!

Today was Easter and since my grandma just recently moved in with us we had it at our house. It turned out really nice. We had amazing food as always. Ham, mashed potatoes, green beans, deviled eggs, and salad. It was great. It ended up being only a few people. My parents, my grandma, my sister, my mom's brother John, my mom's cousin Jim, Ben and Anthony. We stayed and longer then my sister and Anthony which usually happens. We socialized with my family which is super important to me. As much as I can get annoyed with my family having a boyfriend that isn't going to bitch about being around them makes me really happy and means the world to me. Billy was never like that...ever. He always wanted to just go and hang out with his family. It really bothered me but I was too afraid to say anything. Anyway, we hung out and watched funny youtube it was just fun haha.
Around 5:00 Ben and I went to his parents house. I love hanging out with his family they are so cute and so funny. When we got there they made us go on our Easter basket hunt. My mom just set mine in front of me this morning haha, but his mom made up clues and made us each go and search for it. It was so much fun! It was hard though she is very clever. They got me lots of candy and then the Happy Feet Two Movie!! This was so perfect because that was Ben and I's first date. We went to Olive Garden and then to see Happy Feet Two. I still have the ticket stub. He got his favorite candies and then the movie Real Steel, another movie we went to go see on another date :) We started watching Happy Feet Two and just cuddled. His mom made spaghetti and meatballs and fruit salad for dinner. It was so good, an nontraditional Easter dinner but it was really nice and very tasty! After dinner we played my favorite game German Blitz. It is a card game his parents taught me to play whenever I first met them. We play it a lot and it gets really intense. I blitzed twice the whole time, and Ben won like he always does. 
Overall today was a pretty good day! :) I got to spend the day with my two families haha it was just a great time. In the morning I am going to head out to Buffalo, NY to spend the rest of break with Meagan. We are suppose to go see our favorite band Mariana's Trench but the lead singer, Josh Ramesy is sick and in the hospital so it may be cancelled. But none-the-less I am going to go hang out with her in her home town and party like rockstars haha just kidding.

Alaina Marie
xoxo

First Post!!

Well Hi!
My name is Alaina Marie. I will be turning 19 on April 30.  I go to Gannon for pre-med. Eventually I would like to become an orthopedic surgeon. I love school although my first semester didn't go as well as I planned. I live with both my parents and my sister Natalie and as of just recently my grandma. I am really close with my dad we have a lot in common. My sister and I don't usually get along we just don't see eye-to-eye.  she also is dating the biggest dead beat loser on the planet Anthony. He is never going to amount to anything and she could do so much better. My dad and I have been going hunting since I was 10 it has been like our bonding thing. My mom and I are pretty close also I can talk to her about just about anything. She has been there for me through a lot of stuff and is really supportive. My grandma is just super cute and I love her so much! :) She is living with us because he husband has a serious gambling problem and she doesn't need the stress that he is constantly bringing to her life.
I have two best friends Meagan Dian who I met at school she is my roommate and Krysten Nicole who I have been best friends with since I was a sophomore in high school. They are my life lines I can go to them with anything and everything. They are the most amazing people I know. They are both so supportive and have helped me through a lot!
Another person that is really special to me is my other best friend and boyfriend Benjamin David Gaston. He is really the best thing that has ever happened to me. He is the most amazing guy I have ever been with.  I met him when I worked at Finishline. I only worked there for about 10 months. When I met he was engaged to the biggest materialistic bitch I have ever met Ashley. Anyway it didn't really matter at that point because I was in a relationship with probably one of the douchebags in the world Billy. I dated him for 2.5 years and he cheated on me and pretty much treated me like shit. Anyway we started working together and I always thought he was pretty cute :) he always made me laugh and we had a lot in common we both liked to hunt and wanted to travel mostly just random stuff. Well anyway he asked me for my number and we started texting outside of work. One day he got caught texting me and that was the end of that for a while haha but we still worked together and talked a flirted but nothing major because I am not into cheating at all. Eventually towards the end of the summer Billy broke up with me because he was going off to school even though we had been through so much shit that the distance wouldn't have changed anything on my end. Whatever. I am glad he did. Shortly after that Ben and I started talking more and more and his and Ashley's relationship started to crumble. He couldn't stand her and I'm sure she knew something was up. We started talking every night. He invited me over and it was really cute :) we watching finding nemo. We ended up hanging out a few other times before he officially broke it off with her. She ended up seeing pictures of us hanging out and tried to attack me about it but it didn't matter he was done with her and wanted nothing to do with her again. I obviously didn't want to date him right away because he had just gotten out of an engagement but we started dating on January 2, 2012. We just had our three months the other day! :) He is just perfect for me in so many ways. He listens to the little things. For example I had told him that I had never had a guy get me flowers before. Well when he asked me out he got down in front of me and gave me a single pink rose and asked me to be his girlfriend. It was adorable, absolutely perfect! <3
He treats me like an absolute princess, something I have never been treated like this ever. I am so comfortable with him and nothing is ever weird between us. He is honestly the best thing that has ever happened to me!
Well it is now officially Easter! :) So Happy Easter! :)

Alaina Marie
xoxo